Rick's Personal Blog
2002-06-14 - 9:41 a.m.
So today I'm going to the doctor seeking drugs. These anxiety attacks have gone on too long, and are costing me too much sleep.
I wish I understood why this gets me the way that it does. I can't seem to control it, it has a mind of it's own. I have tried relaxation exercizes, meditation etc.... nothing seem to help.
Sometimes I think that I am losing my mind. It makes sense to think that one could and should be able to control his own emotions. Because truthfully it is just a class. And in one week it will all be over.
This last week will not be easy by any stretch either. Monday I have another test, and Wednesday is the final. Class starts at 6:15, and goes until 9:30. He wants to teach until 8 on both Monday and Wednesday. Then, we take the tests. Not to mention that I also have a lab Tuesday and Thursday from 6 to 8, and I have the Lab final on Thursday.
The test on Monday is over 5 chapters.
I guess I'm finding out what kind of metal I'm made of. I'm a little disappointed in the way I have responded to this challenge.
I am overwhelmed... plain and simple. I never expected it would be this stressful.
6 more days... 6, just 6
Later,
Rick
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