Rick's Personal Blog
2002-06-20 - 12:19 a.m.
Tonight I took the class final. After all that, I’ll be getting the grade I need. 6 weeks of hell is finally over.
This was strange for me, but I have learned a lot about myself that I didn’t know before. I think I understand what the whole concept of entropy really means, even outside of the realm of physics. Stress is energy, and it does work on your body, and you pay for it personally. Like substances, I think that we absorb the kind of energy that is around us. If we create a stressful environment, we absorb what we create. However, unlike substances, we have a choice whether or not to absorb the energy that is around us.
I know I’m being philosophical here, but really all I’m saying is this: I let too much get to me, and I’m not really pleased with how I respond to stressful situations. Because based on the same philosophy I just declared, if I’m stressed out, I am outputting “stress energy” which can be absorbed by those around me, thus making them uneasy, or stressed. I know this may sound like a stretch, but think about it. Don’t stressed out, or angry people make you uneasy, or even angry? Could it be we absorb that energy much like a mass or substance does heat?
Think of it conversely as well, aren’t there people who are just a joy to be around? They make you feel good, and you enjoy their company. Hence the positive energy is absorbed. Or how about the one person who can either be the life of the party, or the one who ruins it for everyone.
It’s all relative, just a different manifestation of energy.
I’m feeling betting now. I’m starting to feel a bit more like my self again. I’m glad to be writing more. I truly enjoy this. I’ve missed writing, and plan to do a lot over the summer.
In other news:
The kids are all out of school, and everyone did fine.
No. 1 is taking a summer school gym course so that he can get into some other classes. He went to NYC with a group of kids from school, and told us that he is moving there as soon as he is 18. I don’t think he understands “rent” yet. He had a great time, and I’m so glad he got to experience that. I myself have never been there. I hope to go someday.
No. 2’s becoming the new Chat monster. I can just see it coming now; “Dad? We each need out own computer…” The dang computer has become worse that the phone. The baseball season is in full swing, and I get to see the rest of it with out distraction. I’ve come to enjoy the evenings out at the park watching our boys do their thing.
No. 3 is going back to public school in the fall. Cheryl feels confident that she is ready. She did very well this year, and we both agree that she has a level of confidence that she didn’t have before. She is also beginning to bloom. I don’t know if I’m ready to deal with my baby girl growing up. This is uncharted territory for me.
So I have the whole summer in front of me. I’m excited, and I am going to enjoy the break.
Later,
Rick
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